because my ass needs rest

yay!
i think i'm gonna make wednesdays my favourite days from now on.
why, you ask?

BECAUSE i'VE GOT NO FREAKING CLASSES ON WEDNESDAYS!!!!!!!
(ok fine.maybe not alllll wednesdays. but the occasional wednesdays. which is good enough for me :P)

sigh.
having slept at 4 am on tuesday and waking up at 7.30 just to make it in time for the 8 am ward rounds..........

wednesdays shall now be officially called my resting-ass-weds.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
i feel soooooooooooooo relaxed!!
i feel unrushedddddddddddd
and i feel....at peaceeee
gosh
it's been long since i've felt like that :(
although i've still got to research for my pbl and type it out....but oh well...
enjoy first!!
HEH HEH

lets talk a lil about uni, since i never really got down to talking about it.

this year in year 3, the batch has been divided into two seperate groups, that being surgical and medical.
i've been assigned to the surgical part of things.

in surgery itself, it's then divided into different rotations, ie general surgery, urology, and ortho.
i'm curently on the general surgery rotation.

so what happens on a normal day? now that we don't have lectures anymore??
wellll folks, unfortunately for me in year 3, academic objectives are now expected to be fulfilled via SDL.
what is SDL?
omgawd
freaking SELF-DIRECTED-LEARNING!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ok fine. it's not too bad...
but i'm just lacking the motivation (and hardworking-ness) to grace myself through.

every other day is filled with things like bed-side, where u present a patient's case one-on-one to a doctor and ......depending on who your doctor is, you may either be
a) bombarded with questions (which is what my tutors do)
b) made to look/feel stupid (which is also what my tutors do)
c) ignored (thank god i haven't gotten one like that, YET!)
d) scolded/screamed at (none of my tutors are the scolding type so far, but you never can tell, can you?)

geeee
i've seen and heard loadsa stories where practising-consultants become all high and mighty and snotty and start screaming and shouting and the housemens' around. aiyoyo
is this what is in store for me in the future?

other than bedsideS we have two problem-based-learning, where we are dutied to research and report and present and....gosh

clinical skills where we learn venepuncture, IV cannulations and bla bla bla

theme teaching

OTs

clinical rotations

aiya...thinkng about my academic syllabus is alreading making me tired.
geeee

and in every rotation that you go through, you'll be designated a ward that will be your life and day.
but of course, you're given the option to roam the entire hospital and invade any other ward.

as we've been told a gazillion times
"this is your hospital. do what you like"

bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
patients are gonna be my best friends from now on
:)

UPDATES!

ok.
so lately i've been out-and-back again in the blogging world, putting blogging and writing and ranting in the public scene as my last priority.

how is JB so far?
honestly, not too bad.
save for my huge paranoia of being robbed/kidnapped/.......

everytime i'm walking and i hear the rumble of a motorbike's engine, my heart takes a leap as i clutch on to all my belongings tightly and try to go as far in to the side of the road as far as i can.
oh ya..i also try to make myself invisible by shutting up too :P

sigh

but other than that, it's not too bad.

have been hanging out loads with the meddies since we all practically live in the same place.
to simply put it, they're my new family now.
but of course, i miss the real ones and the old ones way tooooooooooo much at times.
geeeee

and if anyone was wondering, yeahhh
P has gone back to the land of the "great down under".
so there goes one part of me. long distance takes it's toll yo..but at the end of the day, it's worth it :)
thereforeeeeeee i'm not going to elaborate much lest i burst into tears all over again and god knows i've done enough of that. :S

and babi sial..
i'll save my complaints for my shit loada work for another day.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! is enough to say it all i suppose.

ngek.
other than that, JB's been a blast.
:)

heh. time flies

so there we have it.
chinese new year 2008, year of the rat.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!

and just so we all know, i'll be headin down to Johor BAhru this coming sunday for my year 3 clinicals.
yes, i'll be there in year 3 and year 4 so everyone..prayyyyyy with me that the crime rates in JB will drop. i swear i'm more freaked out about the lurkers or criminals in JB than about the workload/stress that's coming my way.ahhhh!! pepper spray pepper spray!!!!!!!!
and i think i'm gonna buy myself a fannypack/pouch to sling around my waist and to get me a new bagpack so that no one can pull a "snatch-theft" on me yo.

so in relation to the new year 2008, this shall be one year with no handbags and no slingbags.
what man.
oh, and also no sleeveless or strappy clothings but big baggy t-shirts and jeans. no skirts, no shorts, no blah.

can you tell that i'm NOT looking forward to JB?

(think happy think happy!)..uh..happily, i managed to pack allllll my stuff in 3 days! am i proud, or am i proud?

(think happy think happy!)..uh..also happily, i think i've made it into the "auntie and si-lais pro-evolution club". have been grocery shopping (bought detergent, flour, eggs, la la la), baking(cupcakes and jellies), washing the floor, baby sitting, writing lists/grocery lists and. ok. that's enough.

honestly, i'm not looking forward to uni commencing. especially when i've done nothing else but to sleep, lepak, eat and sleep again these past 3 months.

and obviously, i've adapted to this "lazy" routine ever so quickly, but having to re-adapt myself againt to the more hectic schedule is definitely going to be murderous.

sheeeeeeeeeeeesh
and to only have to start uni earlier than the other peeps and have my holidays cut short by a few weeks........
GAWD
SAVE ME!

ok.
again
can you tell that i'm not looking forward to go to JB??????????



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tagged

5 things found in my room (but i think this is such a DUHH question -_- i mean, which 5 do i list? normal 5, or weird 5?)
- clothes clothes clothes
- guitar
- MORTEIN (cannot survive without)
- books books books
- laptop

5 things I've always wanted to do
- migrate to a foreign country
- learn a new language (like MANDARIN!! gawd. wo pu ta hui chiang hua yi -_-)
- LOSE WEIGHT and tone myself up. HAHAHAH.
- GROW TALLER!
- earn loadsa $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ to fund my shopping, food exploring, and bookssss

5 things found in my bag
- wallet
- phone
- rubbish (ie sweet wrappers, used reload coupons, receipts, bits of tissues.. bahhh..i'm a messy person)
- camera (occassionally, although i NEVER use it -_-)
- lip balm (occassionally)

5 things found in my wallet
- a few dollars. issit clear that i'm always broke??
- IC, student card, driving license..etc etc
- old receipts, used reload coupons, bla bla bla..yes..i have rubbish in my wallet too :P
- folded dollar notes from friends
- namecards

5 things I am currently into
- video streaming
- baking/making jelly..... :P
- sleeping
- omgawd my life really is THAT sad. i can't list anymore!!!

5 persons to be tagged
- whoever larrrr haha

that bloody confounding tooth

so my tooth ached again last night and if was the MOST PAINFUL toothache that i've ever had throughout my 19 years or so of life.
it was so darn painful, i gobbled down my painkillers and just lied down in bed and cuddled myself with tears streaming down my face.

gawd.

thank god for painkillers, the pain wore off after a tortuous excruciating half an hour later.

gawd.

delightfully, the pain wasn't there anymore when i woke up this morning but my gums are still swollen as hell although a lot better than the day before.

so it's back to the dentist tmr.
geezzz

i tell you
painkillers are a wonder!!
i felt like dr gregory house the whole of yesterday as i carried my pills everywhere and everytime i felt that pain coming back, i'd just swallow down a pill (with water of course. how in the world do ppl swallow pills WITHOUT water??).

i tell you, i am alive NOW ONLY BECAUSE OF THOSE PILLS MAN.
otherwise...
confirm mati redi.

and you know, speaking of toothaches, i think they're a wonder-punishment man.
the pain isn't just the same as like, say a papercut or a bike wound because those sorta pains are just..well biasa punya pain.
whereas the TOOTHACHE kinda pain, is a damn freakingly bloody ass annoying kinda pain.
it's the sort of pain where you CANNOT tahan and it just spoils your whole entire day because you CANNOT do ANYTHING at all with the pain.

it's not a burning kinda pain, or a pressure kinda pain, or a slit kinda pain.
it's an annoying pounding cold pain that if goes on for long enough, will give you an equally pounding headache.

and speakin of punishments, they should use toothaches as threats/punishments man.
like instead of putting ppl into cells for robbery and hanging them for murder or what not.....

just give them a toothache.

WITHOUT the painkillers of course.
and when u feel like it, you can crank up the pain factor.
confirm suffer like shit.

blarghhhhhhhh
i really really hope this tooth will stop giving me problems man
hopefully the dentist will solve it once and for all.
otherwise..
you can sign me in for the loony bin.

i need a hero for the pain, and a big fat burger for the hunger

what was planned to be one last lovely weekend with the boyfriend has only managed to turn out disastrously.
instead, here i am at home blogging with a bloody freaking toothache that's making me go bonkers along with an unfilled satiety!!! what the hell man..
I WANT FOOOOODDDDDDD!!!!!!!
what bloody useless luck.

see..

i had the final treatment of my 2nd-time-root-canaled tooth just yesterday afternoon, and come night, my tooth was aching like crap, which puts me back to square one - the reason why i even had a root canal done in the first place.

for those who don't know, root canal involves drilling the tooth, extracting all the nerves supplying that tooth and then filling it up with some sorta white subtance.

in my opinion, the only reason my treated tooth still hurts like crap is because the substance was filled up way too high above my teeth level. i found it really hard to eat and felt as if i could never really close the gap between my upper teeth and the bottom ones.
not only so, but because there's too much of that white substance thingamajigie, it's causing extra pressure on my tooth which isn't aided by my already inflammed gums!! and chomping on it doesn't help either!!!!

so

too much white thinige + chomping on food + inflammed gums + too much pressure =

A BLOODY FREAKING TOOTHACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHH

and because my usual dentist is closed on sundays, i went to a new one just a few doors away.
he suggested crowning :S
which would mean extracting the old tooth, and sorta replacing it with a fake one.
gawd

first of all, i just spent what i think is a ridiculous amount of money on one stupid tooth.
now not only did that treatment not work, it's gonna cost me extra money.
dad says crowning would cost about a thousand bucks. WHAT THE HELL??!??

so the dentist suggested a "lowering" of the tooh + medications, and hopefully in these 3 days or so, the pain will go away.
if not..then..

it's back to the dentist again.

for now, it's loadsa pain killers and antibiotics for me along with porridge for the next few days.

what rubbish luck

last sunday here in kl oso cannot enjoy
what the babi luck lah

and if you knew me well enough, i would have CONFIRMed told you about how much i HATE HATE HATE HATE visiting the dentist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i've been visiting the dentist for 4 times now in the past 3 weeks!!
AHHHHHH

someone is testing me man..
someone is justtttt testing me

on another HAPPIER but bitter note, rambo 4 wasn't too bad.......

if you can stand graphic scenes lah.
LMAO

rotten corpses, bits of heads blown off at least a couple of times, stabbing, bombing of body parts, chopping of limbs, screaming, lalalallalal...you get the picture.
gory + scenic.
what mann

and old mister stallone doesn't say more than...10? 20? words in the whole entire movie.
he just...sulks and pouts. biasalah kan?

the storyline was basic..not twist no nuts, so it's pretty simple to understand.
acting was ok lah..

there were also loadsa "OMGAWD SO KESIAN!!!" scenes and a lot of "&((*&%#$!!%$^%&^*&*^%!!!!! OMGAWD THAT MUTHA-DONKEY-KONG-FREAK!!!!!" scenes.

and if you were wondering, there was only one ok-leng chai throughout the movie (goes by the nick schoolboy) and if you prefer the porn-looking kinda guys, you always have stallone.

ok lah. actually i should give him some credit.
he's 60+ and he's still able to walk let alone run and jump/???!?!?!?!
not bad, eh?
heh

btw, based on what i've heard, cloverfield isn't very fit for the... eh... uh.. wobbly-minded. if you get what i mean. LOL

there's a notice at the ticket counter that says that cloverfield is known to cause extreme dizziness in some individuals and that GSC is not responsible for any sickness caused afterwards.
:S

ok now i'm intrigued.

must...
go....
watchhhhhhhhhhhh

and i've a thing for stupid movies too.
so that would put meet the spartans on my "to watch list"

holidays are ending soon though.
boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

it's really weird..

it's really weird how i have 700 ++ posts in the old blog at suwen-screams in an accumulation of almost 2 years

and i only have less than 20 posts in this new blog -_-

oh well

i came home yesterday at 2.30 am only to get into battle with a bloody moth.
i tried saving it, using a pink file to guide it into the living room where it would have
1) more space to fly about
2) no one to bug it (ie me)

but nooooooooooo..it REFUSED to fly into the living room.
it just insisted on flying behind the file towards me, instead of flying forwards into the living room. moths don't really think now, do they?

so after a good 20 minutes or so running around in circles (i was sweaty already!!), i decided to just take the easy way out and kill it with ridsect. -_-

RIP moth